I have done it again.
One year in every ten
I manage it–
A sort of walking miracle, my skin
Bright as a Nazi lampshade,
My right foot
A paperweight,
My face a featureless, fine
Jew linen.
Peel off the napkin
O my enemy.
Do I terrify?–
The nose, the eye pits, the full set of teeth?
The sour breath
Will vanish in a day.
Soon, soon the flesh
The grave cave ate will be
At home on me
And I a smiling woman.
I am only thirty.
And like the cat I have nine times to die.
This is Number Three.
What a trash
To annihilate each decade.
What a million filaments.
The peanut-crunching crowd
Shoves in to see
Them unwrap me hand and foot–
The big strip tease.
Gentlemen, ladies
These are my hands
My knees.
I may be skin and bone,
Nevertheless, I am the same, identical woman.
The first time it happened I was ten.
It was an accident.
The second time I meant
To last it out and not come back at all.
I rocked shut
As a seashell.
They had to call and call
And pick the worms off me like sticky pearls.
Dying
Is an art, like everything else.
I do it exceptionally well.
I do it so it feels like hell.
I do it so it feels real.
I guess you could say I’ve a call.
It’s easy enough to do it in a cell.
It’s easy enough to do it and stay put.
It’s the theatrical
Comeback in broad day
To the same place, the same face, the same brute
Amused shout:
‘A miracle!’
That knocks me out.
There is a charge
For the eyeing of my scars, there is a charge
For the hearing of my heart–
It really goes.
And there is a charge, a very large charge
For a word or a touch
Or a bit of blood
Or a piece of my hair or my clothes.
So, so, Herr Doktor.
So, Herr Enemy.
I am your opus,
I am your valuable,
The pure gold baby
That melts to a shriek.
I turn and burn.
Do not think I underestimate your great concern.
Ash, ash–
You poke and stir.
Flesh, bone, there is nothing there–
A cake of soap,
A wedding ring,
A gold filling.
Herr God, Herr Lucifer
Beware
Beware.
Out of the ash
I rise with my red hair
And I eat men like air.
from Ariel: Poems
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Sylvia Plath was one of the writers who truly inspired me as a young man – and still her poetry is as beautiful and yet visceral as it was to me back then
I still remember the day in my undergraduate writing class when I read a Plath poem for the first time. I always wondered, since she was confessional, if she has the same effect on men as she does women, and you’ve answered that. Thanks for sharing.
Lovely post. I’m currently reading ‘The Journals of Sylvia Plath’ which give a great insight into this most underrated poet. I have her recorded reading of ‘Daddy’ and it is one of my all-time favourite readings by any poet. I guess, like others, I am fascinated too by the Ted Hughes relationship but more than anything I can see the poetics of Sylvia in her journal writing. She is iconic and deserves to be so. Best wishes. Neil
“Daddy” is definitely one of my favorites as well. I included a link to Plath’s reading of “Lady Lazarus” at the end of this post; it is quite good. If you haven’t read “The Bell Jar,” I would highly recommend it. It’s confessional like her poetry and provides great insight into the woman behind the poetry.